People Don't Have a Spine

Last week was an interesting one. While the weather couldn’t make up its mind, at least got the chance to play racquetball, which I’m hoping will become more of a regular thing.

I played horribly and it pissed me off. Astigmatism is apparently becoming an issue and I lack the upper body strength I need to do anything.

I’m not looking forward to this coming week. I hate designing the internal newsletter because I can never get the goddamn text on time and it’s annoying having people constantly breathe down my neck in a rush and get it done, especially when they pile on more last-minute work.

I really don’t know why I let people’s incompetence surprise me. People don’t have a spine or any concept of deadline. It’s UNBELIEVABLE!

I just don’t understand why it is so hard for people to get their shit together and do their jobs well.

My boss is totally in her own world. She has no clue what’s going on or what the priorities are. She clearly has no interest in project management or helping me keep things moving. It’s unreal. She’s not a stupid person… she can’t be… hard-headed maybe? Uneducated? Oblivious? God, I don’t know any more. I really need to go to bed. I’m going to need my rest for the bullshit this week will bring.

An Interesting Turn

Over the course of the past eight months or so, the level and quality of management has steadily declined. However, it is not to my demise. I sit back and watch the self-destruction that occurs before me and I laugh.

In recent weeks, there has been an upper-management push to get the mid-level managers to manage better. It’s working to a degree… My immediate supervisor recently decided that she wanted to be “aware” of what I was working a couple times a week. I really have no problem with management being involved in my daily workflow. In fact, it’s what I prefer.

However, during my first two weeks, there was no management interest and little involvement in my work (except for content). They looked at me like I had three heads when I suggested a bi-weekly department meeting so everyone could remain in the loop and was flat out told “no” for any recommendations I had to maintain a streamlined workflow. So, I let it go, but NOW all of a sudden, they want to be in the loop.

Sometimes, I really hate being right all the time.

Anyway, cutting to the chase, I was granted a hefty bonus for my hard work and patience, which I damn well deserved. That was in addition to the annual 3% raise most staff members receive.

Our departments VP acknowledged that there wasn’t ideal management. There have been many times I’ve wanted to quit because I expected more and felt I deserved better. I usually put it off because this job situation isn’t the worst I’ve been in.

It’s nice to feel appreciated. While I’m sure the bonus was a gesture to prevent me from quitting, I can at least see that there are strives being made to make things better.

Either way, I am doing well and I know it… and the confidence is resurfacing, which I so badly needed to gain.