Form

I can’t believe it’s been over a month since my last post, but I can’t say anything has changed for the better.

For one thing, I’m trying to refocus my attitude before and after work so that I just don’t care about the bullshit. I am currently testing new strategies to cover my ass and stay one step ahead of the idiots that make my life and job difficult.

The department head thought it would be a good idea to instate an intake form for job requests, which would spark a detailed conversation about what the job entails. I think the concept is a great idea, but initially, I couldn’t wait for the form to be instated, so I created my own.

Unfortunately, the department form is a little broad for what a designer needs and there are still many logistics that are unclear with its use. My form, for example, collects details that the department form does not. Hopefully, with the combination of both intake forms, I hope that job requests would flow more smoothly. That has yet to be determined.

New issues have risen. My officemate was promoted, but a lot of the print work he was doing now falls onto my department, which by default means it falls on ME. Most of the time, I have a huge slump in between jobs where I have nothing to do, but this new shift creates the opposite problem.

I’m starting to feel like there is more work than I can stay atop of. My boss, oblivious as she is, has no clue what my day-to-day workload is and just blindly piles it on or doesn’t give me the components I need to complete other assignments. Mind you, 90% of these projects have ridiculous deadlines.

I’m at the point now where I just don’t know what to do anymore and sadly, I’m not the only one that feels that way.

People are confused about their jobs, other people’s jobs and how to handle their projects because there are no clear, definitive answers.

I’m trying to go to work everyday and EXPECT the bullshit, so that it does not come of as a surprise. I’m also trying not to care (at all) when things slip through the cracks. Covering my ass has helped me to cope, because when I’ve freed myself from any liabilities, why should I care?

I am somewhat optimistic that things will change for the better. I noticed that the department head looks at me a lot during staff meetings and presentations — almost as if she wants me to react to things so she can make a decision based on what I think.

I’m usually stoic and quiet during meetings and block emotions from showing through until I am asked my opinion, but I wonder why she turns to me for a lot of things… Hmmm; maybe because I know what I’m talking about?